Such an easy word. An easy concept. Yet it can be so hard to actually find it and figure out how to live life simply, enjoyably, and happily.
For years, I’ve chased after that word and never found it. I had an idea of what it looked like, but every time I rounded the corner, it changed. And instead of changing with it, I continued to chase after the pre-conceived notion I had of simplicity. And I failed myself. I failed to notice how easy simplicity could be if I just found acceptance. Acceptance for who I was, what I loved, what I wanted, what I dreamed of, what I believed in, what I was passionate about and what built my very foundation. Acceptance for myself as a whole, with the love and adoration I reserve only for those I hold dear to me.
It took Nathan quitting his job. And it took going all-in on our business together. And a long project that resulted in 12+ hour days for weeks on end. And a day in the park, under the sun and surrounded by nature. And an overconsumption of sugar and caffeine to power through long days and even longer nights that left me begging for salads and water to cleanse.
It took all of this for me to see that the word and that concept aren’t as foreign as I feared.
I can sit here, disappointed that it took so long to understand how easy this was. Or I can move forward. I can say no even when everyone else thinks I should be saying yes. I can let go of things that are just there because I feel like they are supposed to be, not because I want them to be. I can embrace this opportunity to live simply, live lovingly, and live fully.
I choose to move forward. I choose to ignore the drama and the should haves, could haves. I choose to embrace simplicity. Because life isn’t about looking back and its sure as hell not about all of the things we don’t do. It’s about moving forward and living life to it’s fullest, knowing that you almost always could have done more.
So I’m simplifying. Offline and online, I’m investing myself and my time into things with more care and more thought. And while I’m downsizing our household, I’m downsizing my life here, too. I’m switching this blog back to more of a hobby that will be updated as such – no schedule, only when I (and we) have things to say, and not because I feel like I have to. To go along with this change, I’ve drastically reduced the amount of sponsorship options along with the price. I know this move is beneficial for everyone involved as it will take (a lot of) the pressure off of me to do things for sponsors that I don’t have the time for and there are two incredibly affordable opportunities for you to promote your blog or business.
I’m excited to let go of things I’ve been holding on to. The clothes, the possessions, the pounds, the responsibilities, the requirements, the impossible standards. I’m excited to walk away from them and step into something better, brighter and more fulfilling.
I’m excited to live.
And I’m pretty sure there is no greater feeling.