For a while now, I’ve been really unsure what was going to happen with this blog. Every time I sat down to write, the words didn’t flow like they used to. I stopped being really active here, on social media, and even blog reading – the entire idea of blogging seemed a bit foreign to me.
I considered deleting the blog, moving on to “bigger” and “better” things. I was probably 75% convinced that stepping away from blogging was the right move for me. It felt like a good time to walk away as our life had changed drastically from when this launched back when I quit the corporate world. I’m such a different person now and closing the door on the old chapters of my life felt right.
But when I sat down to tell Nathan I was ready to say goodbye to this blog, what came out wasn’t “this is the end of the blog.” Instead, I told him I had hundreds of ideas to talk about and just couldn’t find the words. That I wanted to blog, but I just wasn’t feeling like it was my space anymore.
So he suggested I go back to a personal hand-written journal again. I knew I’d much rather type it out so I figured why not just have a private blog and d I was inspired immediately. It was the first time in over a year that I felt like I had the want and ability to just write again. To really put my emotions out there. Out of my head, even if it wasn’t for the whole world to see.
But then I started wondering why I wasn’t using this space as a journal like I used to. Why it wasn’t collecting memories of our journey into self-employment, our growth as a couple, our house transitions, the baby fever that seems to grow each day, our travels, and everything else that I would want to look back and remember in five years.
And it wasn’t because I needed a new design to refresh my space here. Or because I had someone reading this that I wish never knew I had a blog. Or because I had the biggest case of writer’s block known to man.
It was because this blog reflects so much of what I used to be. What used to drive me, fill me with joy, and the priorities of what feels like a life that is long forgotten. It’s my starting point. It’s my new beginning. It’s everything that brought me to where I am, but so little of what fills my core today. And while I don’t ever want to forget how I got here, I’m also ready for another new beginning.
And I want that new beginning to show more about me than that I work 24/7. So I’ll be starting a new blog. One that’s geared towards anything but the business stuff. I want it to give me that outlet for everything that isn’t small business related. The food, the clothes, the relationships, the trips, the dreams, the hobbies, the beliefs, the growth. The deep, the light, the ugly – all of it.
And I’ll be keeping this one for all things small-business related. The Gnarly Whale, blogging, business tips, interviews, handmade shop promotions and so much more.
I have HUGE plans for both blogs and am looking forward to having two separate outlets to fuel my creativity. I’ve wanted to include all of these things in this blog for years now, but never found a good way to balance them. I know having two jam-packed blogs will be a lot more work, but I’ve never been one to shy away from the work as long as the creativity part comes naturally.
I’ll still be using this blog for all content until the new one is up and running (hopefully by the end of the year.) And if you made it all of the way to the bottom of this post, thank you. I appreciate each and every reader, but especially those that have been there while I’ve tried to balance both aspects of my life in this blog. I’m so excited about the changes and I hope you are too!